The reason for starting this blog occurred to me while I was sobbing and gasping for air in panic. A little light bulb went off. Who else was out there, feeling this pain? Feeling like there was no hope?  Then I looked over to my husband. How many people were in his situation, feeling fine but unable to understand what the heck is up with their loved one? For the first time in a long while, I got out of bed with a purpose.