Hello And Thanks For Coming!
Mxiety came to be as I started coming to terms with the fact that my mental health issues do not make me any less of anything: less of a person, less of a wife, less of a dog mom, less of a friend, or capable employee. I have anxiety and depression with some compulsive thoughts and flashbacks thrown in to keep things fun, but as cliché as it sounds, I will not let them have me.
Since I was eighteen depression has pulled me into isolation. I spent many days feeling too much and then nothing at all. I pushed back with bubbliness in the hopes that could quiet the voice inside of me saying I was not worthy of love or joy. Since I was sixteen I knew I had to work extra hard to accomplish simple tasks, push past physical pain induced by anxiety just to function. Since I was fourteen I had to remind myself that this body I am given is the only one I have, and eating disorders were not doing it any favors.
In 2015, I was at my lowest point, and I swore that if I ever felt better, the only life that would be worth living is one dedicated to ensuring no one felt alone the way I did.
I have a background in Research, Scientific Publishing & Project Management, which is how I am able to run two shows, write and interview folks all while keeping my 9-5 along without forgetting self-care and why I am committed to finding good information to share.
In this process #bethelight was born, the (not-so-novel) idea that when we are unwell, it helps to go out there and help others, to serve as an example of how we wish to be treated when we hit our low points.
To those trying to understand mental illness, I hope I can shed some light. To those suffering, I hope that my resources will make you more comfortable with the idea of reaching out to a professional, instead of being stubborn and insisting that you are fine. Especially if you are great with public appearances, but have spent the last two weeks privately crying. Because that was, and sometimes still is, something that I do. I want you to know where you can find good sources, where to call and who to tweet at if you feel like you might do something drastic or if you just need a friendly voice.
You are not alone.